Promises to myself

I've made an oath to myself not to go there for the time being. And let's pray hard that I can endure and resist the temptation. Just to look after my heart so I won't hurt more, in case anything happen in the future.

I've tried so damn hard not to be bothered with any of these but I don't know why its just so strong. I know you know and you know that I know but why the pretension? I wonder when all these will put to an end. Or it'll end one day without an ending.

Sometimes you're near but yet so far.

Sometimes you're uncatchable when actually you're close to me.

And...

"I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about... And she's got everything that I have to live without..."

I just don't know what to think anymore...

signing off @ 02:06:09