Unclear!

I can happy at one time...

Sad at another blink...

Angry for no reason...

And the reason is still not clear...

Yesterday, my sleep were accompanied by nightmares, sobbing and crying but was not accompanied by Junior. It who have been accompanied and cuddled my sleep for two months but yesterday, it did not. I put him aside and I do not know why.

And the reason is still not clear...

I'm not a perfect person...

Hmm...

One after another...

Hoping no one knows what is running through my head now...

Let me keep it to myself...

I should be ok...

Don't worry...

Haih :(

Effort? Who should do it?

Why o why?

Is it only me? Or is it caused by both of us. Whose fault? I shall say no one.

I do not want to think much on this.

But am I the only one who is putting all the effort?

When you say those words, it always makes me wonder. Wonder on the seriousness.

AND I SERIOUSLY DON'T WANNA THINK MUCH!!!

PLEASE, IT MAKES ME MENTALLY EXHAUSTED!!!

My fault?

Sometimes I just wonder.

Is it really my fault for not smiling all the time? When I am on my normal face, most people who do not know me will say that I am "SOMBONG" and unapproachable. When actually I am shy and not good at talking.

Serious talking here. Masuk ICU punyer!

And I can not blame people for who they think I am. I will tend to keep quiet if I do not know the person well enough and will not just start with a friendly conversation.

I am sure last time I was worse than this. I will keep quiet all the way and will not even care to give a smile. Check out with my babes~

I am quite friendly too, it is just that I need longer time to warm up.

And I am sure, once I post this entry, there will be a few to comment. Just wait and see~

Randomness

I'm back in Singapore Thursday night. 2 days is not enough to rest my mental exhaustion and few hours is not enough for my drug treatment. Need more.

Flying off tomorrow for another competition. Some may say cool, fortunate, fun and all. It's tiring actually but yup I'm having fun and learned a lot! Seriously.
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Is this normal?

The fear of getting tired of.

The sulking of small issue.
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I will take a long vacation after major matter is settled. And that will be after 10th January 2010.

The Sun, The Sand, The Sea and The Sa.... If possible 4S all the way~
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At work now, settling few of the major issues before 6pm.

Tired & Sleepy

Out of town for few days this week. And another week starting next week.

Near, but tiring. And it's only the first day.

Man~ I'm like addicted to my drugs. Dangerous and scary lah sey.

For now, I'm just scared of any possibilities. Just pray for the best, Or didn't I?

I am totally exhausted. I was at office for more than 12 hours, trying to finish my to-do-list the whole week last week. Where I'm supposed to be on leave. I had my time-off on Thursday afternoon, but that was a rushed also.

I slept at 5am yesterday, procrastinating on the packing while thinking on what to do.

Last time I thought, being busy is good. Woah~ now I just had holiday in my mind. The sun, the sand and the sea should be enough for me. Oh and the sa.... (^_^'') 4S...

Sleepy now, gonna layan the athletes first before I go to bed.

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